• me...myself...

    Far south of India… a small region, gifted with the Periyar river bed…teemed with the tales of unknown sailors from Muziris, great Saint Thomas himself-he who touched Jesus with his spatula fingers, the place mother land to Adi Shankara…, a land where the thrilling legend of the 'Badar war' stories were told out loud by the contemporary prophet C.M Moulavi.... is happened to be my humble birth place....in a period,  just before the dark age of Indian democracy - The State of Emergency…

    Unlike everyone, my childhood was also completely  i  s  o  l  a  t  e  d... but a bit spicy with the red flags dumped in the local party office corners ...great old tomes by demons of global literature from the junkyard of 'Jaihind' ,a small village library ... - "Jawahar Talkies" - next to my home. The films-no all the films there...Jeevithanouka...Kutty kuppayam...Rarichanenna pauran... Oodayil ninnu... Mooladhanam... Kandam bachakkottu... Sanchaari.... Vayanadan Thamban... Kalliyankattu Neeli... Veluthakathreena... Sheelavathy... Shakunthala... Lankadahanam... NaagamadathuThampuratty.... Alavudheenum Albhuthavilakum... Nellu... kolilakkam... Sharapancharam... Garjanam... Kadathanattu Maakkam...Mamaankam... Aaravam... Rachana... Uppu... Pokkuveil.... Cheriyachante Kroorakrithyangal.... Oridathu... Thampu.... Yavanika... Sankarabharanam...Vikram... Punnakaimannan... Angady.....Ten Commanments… Cancerum Laingika rogangalum... Anantharam... Lisa... and off Corse, The god must be crazy....Ohh I went really crazy...!! - In the early morning, with a red plastic bucket, collected coins from vendors and buyers of the home town market - around Eighteen thousand Indian Rupees and arranged a small crew out of coolies, farmers, carpenters and the fellow drivers. Then started the shoot... the one hour length amature film got realised, so many mistakes, but all the villagers watched..., am still trying and trying harder for the realization of my second approach, playing the silver screen...

    Teenage, filled with some revolutionary social activities... (With strong faith in the upcoming revolution and with firm heart believed, one day the red sun will rise over the Western Ghats)... Under the wide cultural skies of late 80's and early 90's, I also unfold my little umbrella embroided with some theatrical and literary activates.... Master classes and conversations...with… K.T.Muhammed, Thekkodian, VenukkuttanNair, Ammannoor, Kalady Gopi, C.L.Jose, Vayala Vasudevanpilla, Kavalam Narayana Panicker... K.S.Narayanapilla, O.N.V, Civic, Ibrahim Vengara, KPAC Sulochana, Mullanezhi, Madambu, M.Thomas Mathew, T.M.Abraham, T.Sukumaran, Chemmanam Chacko, N.K.Desham, Kadammanitta, Sanumaster, K.P.Narayayana Pisharady, M.N.Vijayan, Jayaprakash Kuloor, P.Balachandran, Naripatta Raju, Pavanan, C.Radhakrishnan, Asha Menon, N.C.Mammuty, D.Sreeman Nambuthiri, Binoy Chathuruthy, P.K.Gopi, Aaranmula Maniyappan..... And the deep fall into the pot of dark blue camel ink, I too wrote certain verses (stupidities) thereafter.....

    നോക്കൂ, എന്റെ ആകാശത്തിലുമർക്ക പൂർണ്ണിമ ,
    ഉഷ്ണ ചേതന, മീനച്ചൂടിന്റെ തണുപ്പ് ...
    വിത്ത്, കൈക്കോട്ട് , വിഷുപ്പക്ഷി.
    നെറ്റിമേൽ കുരുത്ത ഓരോ തുള്ളി വിയർപ്പിലും
    നിന്റെ നേരായിരുന്നു . നിന്റെ മുഖമായിരുന്നു.
    പുതുമഴ,
    മറിഞ്ഞു മദിച്ച മണ്ണിൽ നിന്നു  വിരഹച്ചൂളയുടെ നീരാവി
    ഞാൻ ഒറ്റയ്ക്കല്ലാതെ ഒറ്റക്കയ്ക്കാണ്
    ദൂരെ, നിന്റെ കാമ്പസിലെ
    പേരറിയാത്ത മരത്തിന്റെ താഴത്തെ ചില്ലയിൽ
    ഋതുപർണ്ണ വിദ്യ വശമുള്ള ഒരു മിണ്ടാപൂതപ്പക്ഷി
    ഇലകളെണ്ണുന്നത് കണ്ടുവോ ?!!

    VITNESSed so many theatrical miracles...
    Thikkurishi's Sthree... Pattini Gadha... Aswamedham... Ningalenney kammunistakki..... Fassahu... Ithu bhoomiyanu... Bommakkolu... Avasanam Vanna Adhithi... Kattukuthira... Kaapalika... Charandas chor... Kashmeeril ninnoru kavitha... Achaammakkuttiyude Achayan... Othello... Karnabharam... Daivathaar... Theenmeshayile Durantham... Ezhu rathrikal... Raktha rakshassu... Nighumbhila… Naradan Keralathil... Veera Sringala... Karutha daivathe Thedi... Unarunna Saarangi... Albhuthankanam… Yathy yayathy…. Godoye Kaathu... Ravunni… Hayavadana... Romeo and Juliot... Odysious... Tempest... Avanavan kadamba... Theyyatheyyam... Souparnika... Kumaran varunnilla... Crime... Chandrahari & Padukalam and many more....

    Still I don't realy know what to say, around ten-twenty thousand crowd stood motionless with pin drop silence, watching a single man.... what we used to call kadhaprasngam!!!! I was one among the audian to shock ...'Aisha'- by V.Sambashivan, to astonish Kedamangalam, Chingavanam Sisters, Chirakkara Salimkumar and off course the wisecracker V.D.Rajappan...

    "നിൽക്കാൻ ഒരു തറ, പിന്നിൽ ഒരു മറ, എന്റെ മുന്നിൽ നിങ്ങളും...",

    ...The brutal words from the greatest oracle got reverbed louder and louder in me...The eighteen year aged started a theatre group, within the concept "young collective experimental theatre search in a rural space"...., around twenty plays have been written & directed by me, staged more than two hundred...

    In the turn of time after the pre-graduation from Sri Sankara Vidhyapeedam, I migrated to the capital city of Kerala for my higher studies, after four laborious years got graduated from the celebrated Kerala University, passed out with First Rank- a 24ct and 2.5 gram Goooold medal in Applied Art….institution was College of fine arts kerala.

    Early 90’s were like 'Great depression’, unlike every Indian Graduate, I have to wander for a good job option and stuck with ‘Animation’(a term quite unknown in my ‘habitat’) and eventually I got master classes from legendary Oscar Award Winner Dereck lamp, Jeff hale, Director of Star Wars - Rob Coleman, Paterno Ejercitado and the crazy Bill Plimpton….Bill Mathews…and even a week with Issue Patel & Ajith Rao....days and days of errors and trails…

    Now it is the second decade, I am with Visual media…in Vismayas Max I am supposed to be “ The Director”. The jobs I full filled throughout my age, started at 11 as a photo graphic studio boy, Soda maker's assistant, a carrier of Ganja (I never thought at my age of 14, the packages were stuffed with some narcotics..)...Fire worker’s assistant, a cleaner in taxi stand, Tailor's assistant, a quarry worker, a local library-librarian, a light & sound worker, Drama Light Operator, freelance photographer, a painter at a wall painting company, a painting school Instructor, a tuition teacher a designer in an adv. agency, a short story writer, a theatre technician, a theatre director, TV show director, MNC employee, Visual Effects Director and so many others gives me the power of confidence to lead my team in Vismayasmax to even higher levels... Now am almost settled in Trivandrum, Kerala……deeply supported by wife Sajin and Miss Neythal Michelle, my daughter & her little smile…